June 21, 2010
I spent the whole of yesterday at a bbq on the beach. Not a bad way to spend a Sunday. However, the fun was dampened a bit when yet another friend announced their pregnancy to the thirty or so of us in attendance. Most mind blowing was that she was exactly 4 weeks and 1 day along. Yep, she had gotten the positive test the day before. Of course I'm excited for her but it was hard to spend the next hour or so talking about how excited she was, baby names, symptoms etc. I also couldn't help but feel a little wistful that I will never have that level of excitement again. I was just thinking the day before that we might not even be able to tell anyone anything until 20 weeks and a successful amnio. It's maddening that this process has become so terrifying for us that we can't even become excited until that point. Meanwhile my friend is already thinking baby names and nursery furniture. I'm feeling sorry for myself now so I think this is enough for today.