January 6, 2011

Moving Forward

I had my RE appt today. I'm back on the Follistim. Same protocol as last time. We're hoping to get a lot of eggs again. I spent a lot of time with my doctor discussing IVF/PGD. I keep going back and forth between PGD and aggressive transfer. My RE is for PGD (but would do either) and I trust her and her opinions so I think that's probably the route we will end up going. However, my RE thinks we should try to get one more bfp before heading into IVF. I'm actually feeling really good about this protocol and am happy to have some time to prepare myself for ivf--if it's needed.

Tomorrow I am embarking on a cleanse. I've never done one before (and I know a lot of people think they are crap) but I'm going to give it a shot. I'm going for the full mind/body makeover here. I'd like to lose 30 pounds before heading into ivf and I certainly know that I need to eat better. I'm hoping this cleanse will give me a jump start on the process. Of course, I'll let you all know how it's going. I'm sure it's not going to be easy but if we end up doing ivf I want to know that I've done everything possible to ensure success. If it fails, then at least I won't have the feelings of "if only I would have...". My second acupuncture appointment is also tomorrow. I'm looking forward to the relaxation.

My sisters pregnancy is progressing well. She's in her 15th week or so. I find myself avoiding conversations with her (usually we talk multiple times a week). It's just too difficult for me to hear about what baby item she's bought, how excited my parents are, etc. Perhaps she is feeling the strain as well because she doesn't call as often as she used to (or maybe she's just busy and I'm reading too much into this). Regardless, it's difficult and sad. I don't want her to think I'm being selfish or don't care but I'm not sure that she understands at all how hard this is.


  1. The decision to jump into PGD is soo soo so tough. Have you had any genetic counselling yet with respect to your odds of success? Just curious...that could help too.

  2. We struggled long and hard about doing PGD again (we did it once). It's a very hard decision to make, but I like the sound of your RE's reasoning. It's a possibility, but you're not being pushed towards it right away. And I will keep fingers crossed that you don't ever need to go down that road.

    I think a cleanse is a great way to kick off other changes, and to get you physically and mentally in shape for whatever comes. As much as anything, I think they sometimes work as a "reset" button, and help through the fact that you're putting your body first. (Though, that said, on the few occasions that I've done them, I've always gone for modified versions. In other words, I've cheated).

    (Thirtiesgirl, thank you so much for your comments on my blog. I added you to my blogroll but realized only very recently that it has not updated on my list!!)